Procrastination Nation

Hmmmm.. It's been a while, eh?

I'm so busy lately, I barely have time to write in my ACTUAL journal, much less update for the 6 people that still use Xanga.

I still miss my Grandpa very very much. The nighttime, before I fall asleep, when my mind finally relaxes, is when I grieve and cry. That's the only time I really have.

In case you guys didn't know. Alan (Boles) and I are seeing each other. Dating. Courting. Whatever you kids are calling it these days. lol. We've been good friends for 3 years, best friends for One year, and now we've been dating for a little over 2 months. It's strage, dating a best friend, but it's also so much easier, and so comforting. The only people who could challenge our "Best Couple Who Were Friends First" title would be Ben and Stacy Bauer.

Alan and I are doing really well,  mostly, or because of, the fact that we have very little in common except the Lord and each other. He's so down-to-earth, logical, at-ease, good ol' boy, and I'm... you know... not any of those things. I think that's why we get along so well, we balance each other out!

I am so overwhelmed with school right now. I would rather do anything than study for the two tests I have tomorrow. Ugh.

I guess i should though.

I love you all... All 6 of you.

Wow. How great is our God?

I haven't talked about it really, but my grandpa, the man who raised me for about 6 years of my life, went home to be with the Lord on August 28. I miss him so much. He was my father figure for the first half of my life, and I can't even entertain the thoughts of what he will miss seeing. My college graduation, my wedding (he was going to give me away), my first child. It is so painful. The last things I said to him before he went in to surgery were "I'll see you soon either way, grandpa" and he said "I'll see you soon, baby girl, I'm gonna go in, see Jesus, then I'll meet you at the Gate and show you around the place."

Through it all, God is good.

I student teach in the spring, and I'm trying to keep my head above water in my school work.

God has answered so many of my prayers, I may tell you about them individually... :)

Thought of the Day:

Remember, when you think that God is simply following around behind you cleaning up your messes, remember John 10:2-4. A good shepherd never follows his flock, he blazes the trail for them!!!

Love Always, Mandy

ANYTHING TO NOT WORK!!

I would do just about anything to postpone the MOUNTAINS of work that I have to do. MOUNTAINS, I tell you.

My Schedule for the next two weeks (pity me)...(all school work is for my tutorial class)

Tomorrow: Rough Draft of 15 day unit plan and plans for my learning center.... DUE. Test at 1030 am.

Tuesday: Three Mini-lessons and their importance to deaf children due. Test at 1:30

Wednesday: Working on my center, pack for two days in tulsa, and take home as much crap as possible because I move out in two weeks.

Thursday: Working on center, dr. apt.

Friday: Center work, surprise.

Weekend: work work work- prepare my portfolio (do two more competencies (teacher thing) ).  

 Present my lesson plan, my activites to do with my "class" and present my learning center.

Tuesday: Meet with my advisor to show her my portfolio (gulp) present my Practicum work (double gulp) and then probably be chewed out for just not being "a very good student". (her words, not mine... not kidding, she told me this).

Rest of the week (Wed-Fri) Move, check out of my apartment, go home. Leave for Europe on Monday, June 4. Gone 18 days.

I'm not sure this is all possible.. is this possible?

Things are hard right now. We had to put my dog to sleep yesterday morning. Other things have come up unexpectedly that are very confusing. I have no time to think about that now. Maybe I'll think about it in two weeks, in Europe. Who knows. Life is passing, and I'm so busy working, I think I'm missing it.

Slow down, Time, you're wearing me out.

People still do xanga?? Shut up. Actually, I kind of miss it.